Song Title: Awakening
My intention is allowing more of me to awaken.
About 9 minutes into the song I hear, “You can start writing now”.
I continue to listen to the music and remember the initial feeling in my heart space. It feels so expansive and in fact the more I feel into that very expansiveness, the more I become aware of my heart beat.
It feels so intense. Even though I am relaxed, it feels like I have just exercised. It feels excited. And it feels very …well, intense…there are not words to articulate the feelings or this experience as it is beyond a racing heart from physical movement.
It is like the subtlest feeling and yet so intense I feel like I can’t breathe; yet, I can. I almost want it to stop and yet. I am perfectly fine and I want to see what happens.
I see a barbed wire fence, like you would see around a jail yard, I see clippers and the strands of barbed wire are being clipped and this wonderful idea of continuing to cut away the very things we think are protecting us, protecting our hearts.
Keeping our heart space open is foundational to our very well being. There is nothing else that is before this. Because in this we know God, Source, Oneness…we know ourselves.
Better we should keep our heart space open, be and express who we are authentically and allow anything and everyone to fall away from us, to truly let go, than to surround ourselves with falsehood.
When we do not share and reveal who we are, subconsciously we do not trust ourselves. Therefore we often attract that very environment of mistrust to us through our thoughts.
From our subconscious state we cannot believe that others are being honest as well. We present a false self and we assume others are too. Again, this is not conscious.
When we stand before self and others completely honest, completely vulnerable as to how we feel, who we are, what we believe, and what we think, we share our Light.
We say, “Hey this is me, as far as I have come to know my self today”. In this, we allow others to stay or we allow others to go, we are home.
In this state we have a knowing that the people that surround us, get us, see us, hear us and love us. Despite any differences in beliefs or opinions between us they still stand before us, they want to be near us because we are authentic.
Energetically we are saying, “See my light?” and they say, “Yes, I see your light.” In that moment they will see their own beautiful reflection or they won’t.
Either is ok.
This is the magic of an open heart, it allows itself to be real and share. In this, we don’t try to control others or get them to even understand us or believe what we believe or validate our experiences, we just are.
In this we trust. We trust ourselves first and then we begin to trust others, and we begin to trust Divine Order. We trust what we see as light or dark to inspire us to the greatest expression of self.
We see it as such, because we have opened our hearts and allowed. We have felt its expansiveness and we are not afraid to feel what is there. Because what is there is good and true and who we are…it is love, it is you, it is me it is Oneness.
Deborah “Atianne” Wilson