Today I had the privilege of being guided to ask a wonderful soul named Justin to share his “Angelic Recipe”and subsequent adventure/ journey with the world. Justin has agreed to share all that he experiences publicly as well as to be coached encouraged and stretched by me as guided intuitively.
I want to thank Justin in advance for his vulnerability and saying a “Sacred Yes to this project. I invite anyone moved by these posts to share your love and encouragement as well as any nuggets you receive for his shares.
We will post as is and we are not concerned with grammar, punctuation or any of the likes…this is about being raw and in the moment with it all!
Deborah “Atianne” Wilson
Thursday, July 19, 2012:
Day 1 of my recipe from Deborah. I’m a bit skeptical about how listening to this music will cause any spiritual change or shift but I’m still very open to the possibility. After all, as a musician myself, I do believe that music is a spiritual experience itself. And as a shamanic practitioner, I’m open to ANY type of spiritual possibility.
That said, I’m writing out where my life is at this point in time, so here goes.
I’m unemployed. I’m trying to work independently as a Personal Trainer in a geographic area where people just don’t value their health and fitness. I do NOT want to go back to “working for the man”. In fact, I’m so dead set against it because I’m enjoying my freedom, that I don’t care if I never work again until I become a psychologist and have my own practice. I hate Corporate America. It took me 10 years of working in it to finally realize that I don’t belong in an office environment, in the midst of corruption, dishonesty, and just plain mean people.
While I’m unhappy with not having any money and relying on my mom and Crystal for pretty much 100% of my financial support, I still do NOT feel eager to go out and get a “job”. “Job” meaning another meaningless, mindless, pointless existence in some building that gives me money every couple weeks. That’s not my higher purpose and doesn’t align with it either, so why should I? To have some money and help with bills? Guess I could, but again, what’s really the point? I’ve had enough of working just to have money. How about working because it’s something I love doing!
I’m studying and planning to take the GRE in the fall and enroll to begin some undergraduate courses in Spring 2012. My intent is to score high enough for admission into Forest Institute, and thus, plan to take the required psychology undergraduate prerequisite courses.
I have only one potential training client lined up, but she needs to obtain two medical releases, so that could take a while. I spend quite a bit of time thinking about how to market myself and get some money coming in. My most recent idea is to have some sort of clinic/meeting, where I give out some free stuff and offer a couple free sessions (or something) to the first X people who sign up for a month’s worth of sessions.
I’m also currently VERY focused on spiritual growth, which I guess explains why I’m even doing this in the first place. I have been working on developing my own psychic and intuitive abilities lately, after having some very stunning success with remote viewing. I have 3 books on the way about further developing one’s psychic/intuition and spiritual growth, which I’m very excited to dig into.
I guess that pretty well sums things up right now…
My written intent before starting (written on my whiteboard): To form a relationship with a new spiritual guide or archangel, to help me as a mentor, alongside my power animal, the Great Wolf.
Day 1 Afterward:
I either fell asleep and woke up a few times or went in and out of a deep trance. I was half lying/half sitting on Steven’s bed listening to Infinity using my phone and earbuds. I was not wearing my medicine bag. It’s hard to say whether I was sleeping or just in a deep trance, but based on my feelings when doing a shamanic journey, I think I was going in and out of a deep trance state.
I recall sitting in a field with some unknown gray-bearded man and seeing the Great Wolf walking behind him, as if he was going to get something. It was warm and sunny in the field, but not overly hot or humid. All the visuals were VERY clear here – CRYSTAL CLEAR, in fact, and all was in color. The Great Wolf was his usual mostly gray, with some black, and more white colors.
I remember asking the Great Wolf if I could trust this guy, and he said of course, or else he wouldn’t have allowed him into our sacred garden. The man said he was my teacher, and that I could call him “Z” because I saw his name – visually, I saw blue letters which spelled something like “Zieler”…”Z…something i..e..something”, and when he saw I was intimidated at trying to pronounce it, he said I could simply call him “Z”. I remember also telling him that my loyalty was to the Great Wolf…..it’s like he asked me something and I said that in response, but I cannot remember what it was he asked….I’m pretty sure he asked something though.
The other thing I saw VERY clearly was that I suddenly found myself staring into the dark black, frying pan eyes of what appeared to be some sort of native or Mayan person. This was actually very startling because all of a sudden an unknown face was just inches away from mine. His eyes were round and VERY DARK black. His skin was a dark brown, again, like a typical depiction of a Mayan or ancient Egyptian. His eyes were most stunning to me, so I don’t remember much else. His skin appeared smooth and soft, well taken care of. This was NOT the same man who was in the field with the wolf and I.
Interesting Note: Later this night while lying in bed with Crystal, I had said something and then quickly followed it up with “or…(something else, can’t recall)”, and I quickly said, “Were you thinking that?” She said no, and I responded that I wasn’t sure if I had thought it or if I had gotten it from her thoughts. My quick recognition of this type of thing has NEVER happened before! After this, I just noticed that I felt VERY open spiritually. It was like I actually felt the collective consciousness and could almost reach out and grab anything I wanted to know. It was a very rewarding feeling.