On our Journey with Justin today we find the ease and grace of working with the angels as fear can creep in as well as how we can begin to easily dissolve known and unknown energies that can prevent us from feeling our most joyful self. See my feedback following Justin’s sharing.
To our collective journey,
Deborah “Atianne” Wilson
Thursday, July 26, 2012 (Awakening):
I’m doing my meditation later in the day than usual today. I trained my friend, Steve, today, so I was unable to do my usual meditation time. Unfortunately, about 10 minutes ago, I became depressed for no apparent reason. Just out of nowhere, with no trigger that I can find. I worked out today and everything. Just happens sometimes I guess.
I’ll be lying on our bed, supported by pillows, using my phone with earbuds.
My written intent before starting (written on my whiteboard): To release all resentment and ill feelings toward Corporate America and the business world which I harbor.
Day 8 Afterward:
This was interesting. Tonight was apparently all about feeling – in an emotional way.
A couple minutes into the meditation, I felt my senses on edge. I felt as one would feel if you were in a dark room, and knew someone else was there with you, and knew they were going to touch you at some point, but you didn’t know when. That’s how it felt – just on edge, as if instinctively waiting for something I couldn’t see. I asked what the feeling was supposed to mean but got no response. This feeling lasted for several minutes.
After that I had a few minutes of monkey-mind, where my brain wouldn’t shut up. When I finally realized it was happening, I thanked my brain for the information and asked it to move along.
A couple minutes after the monkey-mind episode, I felt fear. I do not know why, or what I was afraid of. I just felt fear. I called on the Great Wolf and Archangel Michael to protect me. When I felt protected (almost immediately), I asked what I was to learn from it. Someone replied, “To be brave.” Hmm, well I didn’t realize I was afraid of very much. Then everything was just black and I heard, “See, there’s nothing.”
Upon coming out of the meditation, I felt VERY sleepy, which quickly dissipated. I thought it was interesting how quickly it faded. The depression…well, I can’t really tell if it’s still lingering. If it is, it’s definitely not nearly as intense. It may be gone though. I do feel a bit better; I just really can’t tell. I almost feel as if something is gone and I’m looking for it…so I guess that’s a sign.
In it’s essence you got it. This revealing of higher wisdom that there is really nothing to be afraid of. What they are showing here is this stuff we can get going consciously in our minds and perhaps even more difficult to assess, but not impossible, is the stuff that we fear that can ride quietly below the surface.
“To be brave” is to walk through the fear and do whatever we are called to do anyway, just like you did here. You felt the fear, and you stayed with it and went through the process.
I love working with the energy of Archangel Michael, so powerful, he is fabulous at helping us go beyond our fears.
I wonder what your fear is of Corporate America? Hate has a fear based connection. Is it possible that your meditation revealed to you that there is nothing to fear nor hate about Corporate America? I used the word hate from a previous post.
Well done. I would love to hear some of your monkey mind thoughts that come up in future posts…there could be gold there!
To the journey~