Up way too early this morning which is nothing unusual around here…

I went back to sleep playing the current piece of my personal “Angelic Recipe”on a continuous loop. I am on day 30 of a 35 day angelic assignment of music. Today’s piece of high vibrational music for me is “Truth”.

I was dreaming like crazy before I even woke up the first time and continued to do so as I quickly went back to sleep with this lovely piece.  In my dream, I saw myself talking to someone telling them about the music.  I was sharing with them, doing my best to  inform them  why it (using the music as a spiritual practice) works and why people are afraid to be in self discovery and are actually afraid of their own awakening.

I was guided to post about my dream because of three words that I actually said in my dream…”BIG HAIRY EYEBALL”! They made laugh.

There are two main reasons that can keep people from self discovery or waking up. One is unworthiness and also that they are afraid of the “big hairy eyeball”.

The “big hairy eyeball” is that something or those something’s that our EGO has us convinced is going to be too ugly, too hard, too painful (etc) to deal with, work through or heal. The beauty I share about the music (in my dream and in my awakened state, is that the music begins too do that work for you without a lot of effort on your part and in fact shifts stuff you don’t even need to know about or to deal with.

There is a good reason for this…focused attention on anything brings more of the same. This is Law of Attraction pure and simple. The music supports lifting your vibration rather then lowering it as in many therapeutic modalities with good intention that can have us regurgitating our “stories” over and over keeping us stuck and fixated rather than creating true freedom.

That being said, there will be areas that you will be made aware of in any process of awakening that will show you it isn’t too ugly, too hard, too painful (etc) to deal with or work through. In fact, often just the slightest tweaking of our perspective through the use of the music as a daily practice and we see over and over again the shifts that can occur in the negative energy we have been holding is released with more ease than we ever thought was possible.

In general nothing is ever as scary or hard as we “think” it is going to be once we set the intention to step up, step forward and set our intentions to face the “big hairy eyeballs” of our lives.

PS…here is a picture of one of our cat’s named Bhakti…as I was typing this he was being his teenage self, high up on the second floor ledge…zipping around and being super vocal which caught my intention. I went over to look to see what he was up to and thought to take a picture of him looking down at me. I laughed when I took the picture as I could see instantly his eyes reflecting and looking wild and fiery…maybe not hairy, but certainly in line with today’s post.

I swear he is smiling!

Meditation is to Be Yourself. Being yourself means to allow and acknowledge that Divinity flows through you. We must remember that if we are sitting to seek Divine connection and union then we must remember that God is not silent.

Given the opportunity in our conscious communion that we call meditation, God will speak to us. So, to expect someone else’s version of what meditation is or should look like, and feel like is to limit what may uniquely happen for you and through you.

I have a girlfriend who went to a meditation retreat that sounded to me something other that a “treat’. The offering was sitting and breaking through the suffering one was actually causing oneself in attempting to be still for long periods of time and activate a blank mind. The added bonus was “if you wanted” the teacher would come around and hit you on the back with some sort of stick.

For some this could bring them a state of Nirvana that they are seeking, who am I to say this is not a path? I actually get the intention and the purpose, so please don’t write to me to educate me, I merely use this to use as illustration.

I am using this example to say, there are various roads to connecting to the Divine. This music, this spiritual practice of using this music, is an adventure into your inner landscapes.

You are an explorer. So explore. Allow. Receive. Let God and the angels take you on an adventure. Stop trying to figure out if you are on the right trail, stop trying to fight the random thoughts as you journey, stop expecting your journey to look one way, her way, his way, their way.

You will get so much from this when you…

*Write your intentions before you start your music.

*Listen once daily with eyes closed undisturbed.

*While listening, ALLOW ~ just watch, just look, just listen and just feel ALL of it …

ALLOW ALL…

Hmmm there is a mantra right there!

*Write down everything you can remember – the intention to write before and after activates your vibration of being present in the NOW.

For me I look at it this way…

When I am sitting to connect, to listen, to receive to awaken…I assure you God will reveal things for me personally that may seem mundane or I might categorize as mundane…God may reveal to me profound spiritual laws, principles and wisdom…God may activate cleansing of energy that is stuck in my body temple…God may relax me into a deep restful sleep.

And more…of course in the infinite possibilities, the list is well, infinite.

The point is being with it all…allow all of it so that you begin to see it and know all of it, to be good.

The more we surrender to this, the more we allow and let go, I assure you all the chatter, cob webs, bumps and fits will smooth out in your mind.

You will begin to see, some of you for the first time, that it is ALL really good.

January 23, 2012

Today was an inspiring journey in a sweet, subtle and yet profound meditation. I post today to show again the variation of what can happen for you, to you and through you as you use music as one source of your connection with Spirit and as a daily meditative spiritual practice.

Song Title: Awakening

My intention today was to clear and connect and be in a state of surrender.

I felt called to lay flat and open my arms up in a posture that feels open and very surrendering.

I had insight from Archangel Ardekiel around supporting those who are in the Free Oneness Group on Facebook (anyone who is using the music is invited) and I also saw to add on my website the Free offering of Reiki that I will do once a month as a group.

I had forgotten to get that information up and had only written that in one of the posts here from a different meditation.

Today, for the second time in a week I had what I lovingly call the Divine Surgeons come in during a meditation an energetically work on me.

The posture, the music and my intentions led me to see this circle of beings come in and literally work on my heart space.

A gentle and beautiful vision of my heart space being opened, and cleared and feeling so connected.

I say literally, because I can feel this subtle energy of expansion in my chest and an open space that one might mistake as a hole, but it really is more of space that looks empty, but is full. They opened the space, they “worked” on the space and then they closed the space in it’s new state.

As I type I am reminded that I gave my son, guided by my angels of course, an assignment last night to listen to this very song for 7 days. He also shared he was happy about being included in the Oneness community on Facebook and to hear all that was being shared. Makes me smile. So for those of you in that group…what you are posting does make a difference!

I feel good and my heart feels full this morning and I am inspired to play all the music as I do some of the behind the scenes stuff of my business and home this morning. Playing this music while you circulate the energy of money…like paying bills is very helpful.

***Awakening is a very heart opening song and can especially be used to support heart ache, dissolving the walls we unconsciously form for protection and help us all to trust the inner wisdom that comes from our “Soul Brain” which of course is the heart.

“The music is happy, light and joy-filled which is what you want while you actively feel into your future self now!”

Yesterday I began my new angel assignment of listening to “Visioning” daily for the rest of 2011.

Yesterday I kept it on repeat and listened with eyes closed and opened. I wrote on a pad of paper all the things that came to me to bring into the New Year, both personally and professionally. It felt very much like the beginning of what’s to come and certainly not limited to the page I wrote.

I woke up thinking I am not going to do a Radio show today as it feels like a day of being more introspective…

LOL…duh…that is what Winter Solstice energy is all about.

It is a day to give to me and be with what feels good to do…just be…although that often feels more like a laying around in my PJs kinda word …it really is a mindful word.

During my meditation the above quote came about this particular piece of music that makes it so perfect for the feeling tones this brings which are I alignment for conscious manifesting work.

I also was encouraged to sit up and when I did I was moving with the music and I heard “Be still and know I AM GOD!”.

So bossy!

The energy as you can imagine changed dramatically. Gentle yet MIGHTY. Best words to describe it as well as a fast track to going in deep quickly.

I had lot’s of physical clearing and motivating for the visions I was experiencing of my future, especially in my throat and chest. Makes sense of course, as feelings of being scared often come up when we see things we have yet to do and have not experienced yet.

Our work, our play is to do them anyway!

Dedicated to your spiritual awakening~

Deborah “Atianne” Wilson

Song Title: Labyrinth

Wow, my last day of my “Angelic Recipe”! (Until the next one…tomorrow!)

Of course I got 32 days “assigned” to me, rather than 30 days. LOL, maybe it is like baking a cake in high altitude and the recipe needs adjusting for where you live/where you are currently vibrating! Just gotta trust!

Ok, so my intention is assimilation and integration of all that has been offered to me over the last month of this journey… always connection…always seeing the highest good possible and gratitude.

The music begins and I sense I am a bit chilled and want to cross my legs to snuggle in…there is a blanket near by but, I don’t want to stop to get it…my head band is bothering me…I take it off…my alarm goes off on my phone to remind me to pick up my daughter early…I have to/choose to get up as it will not stop unless I manually do it…I am not that “good” at letting go of continuous distractions during a meditation. Although, as I type that, I am being encouraged to try next time…hmmm.

I get up take care of the alarm and since I am up, I grab the blanket.

I begin again…

I am still a little chilly and put my hands together under the blanket…my ring bothers me…off it goes…sit up straight…breathe in deeply…radiating energy…connection.

God I love this.

Like super charging my battery, which is funny, as my car didn’t start this morning. Random thought as I type.

I am very aware of my house being full of light beings, they are everywhere. As I look remotely through my home they are everywhere and even look like they are going through stuff…very curious.

I make a statement that here on earth that would be rude to do. Ha!  It is explained that what I am seeing is in fact many beings observing my life as an agreed way of learning and expanding.

It would be like me turning on the Discovery channel to learn about something and expanding my knowledge. It wouldn’t be rude; it is a normal way that we on Earth share knowledge and experiences in “far off lands” that we may never actually get to in this lifetime.

Big breath as I take that in.

The beings fill the house…it would be like having a large party and people are even sitting on your counters!

Gee, glad I am so interesting!

LOL

Next thing I remember is being guided from a very upright position to incrementally sitting back all the way in my chair… I am quickly grateful it is a comfy chair as my head comes to rest.

As I am being guided gently to lay back, I am asked to trust…kind of like a very slow trust fall. Easy to do in a short distance and comfy chair!

I end up with my neck being very stretched out and instantly see a team of “doctors” as I sometimes do when I am doing Reiki. It is odd, but has become also quite normal for me to see…they are energetic surgeons for lack of a better description…

I feel a lot of tingling and itchiness like after my thyroid surgery years ago. Healing is now talking place in this area. I am being shown clearing and preparation for my work in 2012.

At some point it feels complete and I move my chin down more to my chest.

Yikes, my ego is popping in as I write. Thinking about all those who will read this and possible judge…

I strong wave of energy…let it go.

Fine.

I chuckle at this, because all that may seem weird to some, but too me I would much rather have that “kind of surgery” than what we think of as “modern medicine”. I am thankful of course for modern medicine and use ANY modality that I believe to be supportive in any dis-ease process.

That being said, my prayers and intentions continue to be to bring my visions into manifested form and that means being bolder, doing things bigger, speaking about all that I experience and feel that I feel is worthy of sharing. In answer to those intentions, I believe the angelic answer is to support my throat area and keep it clean and clear which supports my voice of authenticity.

Big breath.

Ok, that feels complete for my meditation.

******This month passed so quickly. The relationship I spoke of on Day 1, has shifted dramatically. I am not the same person and neither is the other person. I have tears of gratitude as I type this.

So Gandhi, “be the change…”

So Michael Jackson, “I’m starting with the man in the mirror…

Everything starts with us.

Everything shifts and changes from the inside out…

Everything can be different because you make it different…

Not from a place of controlling others, but from a place of fiercely insisting on gifting yourself the time to be still and to know you are Divine, to know you are connected and you are worthy and you are Divine inspiration for other beings who are not incarnated and you are part of their expansion!!!!!!

Everything you do, I do, it matters…

Thank you for witnessing this journey. May it inspire you to discover your own “Angelic Recipe”, your own opening, your own greatness!

You are loved more than you know…

“Our journey is to reveal that which already is.”                 

        – Deborah “Atianne” Wilson

PS I was guided to look for a picture under “looking in the mirror”. This one made me laugh…This is exactly what this music is all about…to see the reflection of our true self, what is already within us and that is what I see being represented by this playful picture!

Here’s to the courage to be yourself…the real you!

Song Title: Labyrinth

My intention is to increase my motivation and to decrease areas of sabotage.

This piece of music is a great example of why there are not samples of the music on the site to choose from. I am not sure of the total number of times I have listened to this piece, but as you can see from two days ago…parts of it bugged me days ago, yesterday I fell asleep and today is completely different.

When any irritation comes up, it generally means it is the perfect piece…it feels like it hits those parts of us that need clearing and areas of energy that are blocking us from experiencing the peace of who we really are.

I am motivated and feel called to do an Isagenix cleanse today and also to go to Sound Health here in Boulder with my daughter who is “under the weather” and have some relaxing treatments.

I saw for my daughter one treatment that would reduce inflammation in her chest, head and actually her ankle that she sprained weeks ago and for me one that would support today’s cleanse.

I was encouraged to sit up straighter and as I did my entire body felt cool and hot at the same time…reminded me of how mint can feel both cool and hot.

I felt like I was being cleansed, which I am all for.

Thoughts of continually working on clearing subconscious stuff came in. It is a huge part of my practice and my angel work to move quickly through the layers of subconscious beliefs and stories that are generally the driving force for most people and not for our highest good!

This practice is like rebooting.

What I love about this music is that unless it is really necessary to consciously be aware of something, we can actually clear stuff without delving deep into issues for long periods of time…which is exactly what most people are afraid of, in doing their inner work.

If something comes up, I am always shown it is because we are ready to move through it so it is a good thing.

Being afraid of what “might” come up, keeps people stuck and feeling powerless. Facing those things, especially unknown or deeper layers to what we may have already addressed, is truly liberating.

I am seeing some new intentions for my next 30 days to bring in my desires for the New Year.

My body continued to feel both warm and cool. I saw that my dedication to my spiritual inner journey needs to be more in balance with a physical one as well.

As I type, I think about how I was all about a lot of intellectual opening in 2010, 2011 has been about opening bigger spiritually and 2012 looks like weaving in the physical in a more holistic approach with more balance.

Ok I’m in…Thank God for the music as it really keeps a more steady vibration as I move forward. I am actually getting excited to see what the next combination of songs will be for me.

Until tomorrow, the final day of this practice and the beginning of a new one…

Dedicated to you and your continued awakening~

Deborah “Atianne” Wilson

Song Title: Labyrinth

Intention is connection and gratitude.

I play the music and close my eyes and notice a very specific rhythm to the music…it really feels very hypnotic and I end up falling asleep on the plane where again I am doing my meditation for the day on the way home.

I become aware at some point that I am in my meditation, which was super relaxing and actually became a nap.

Great.

So there it is…

Rather than type my two paragraphs, when the music ended, I closed my eyes and slept very well on the plane, which I rarely ever do.

See you tomorrow!

Deborah “Atianne” Wilson

Song Title: Labyrinth

Holy cow!

Not even sure where to begin.

Hmmm well not too far into the music I noticed some judgments about aspects of the music and I was quickly shown the word “diffuse”.

Uh ok.

Then a diffuser I was shown a diffuser because I didn’t understand what was being shown to me with that word.

Then I began to experience a swirling feeling in my head and lots of energy as it began to feel like it was actually moving in a clockwise rotation. It felt bigger than what I sense my head was actually doing in it’s movement, but powerful non the less.

Then it had a more triangular movement. Straight lines then points of shifts in the rotation, but still rotating.

Then my head began to move towards my left shoulder in the slowest but deepest stretch. I was thinking this meditation would have been better as a video!

I am not even sure the last time my head went that far over, but let me assure you it has been a long time!

It was wild, weird, amazing and what I found interesting is the hotel pillows were not my favorite and I woke up during the night with my neck actually in pain. I had massaged it for a while and readjusted to go back to sleep, so I find this whole spontaneous stretch so fascinating!

There were now past or future thoughts, just observing this process and then it was done and my head came back to its normal position and the music ended soon afterward.

I feel rested and also understand yoga is something that would really serve my practice and me.

Deep restorative moves.

This message is not new…I laugh…at least love is persistent with reminders of what would serve us!

Till tomorrow my Oneness Family~

Deborah “Atianne” Wilson